Still a day behind and catching up. muccamukk asked, "Describe a long fic you always wanted to write, but never have and likely never will."

This question sent me to my writing folder. I found a document from back when I thought Bucky was really dead, which contains the bones of a long Steve/Tony story called "Super."

There were two parts. The first involved a kidnapper getting hold of Steve before Fury did and trying to use his blood to reverse-engineer the super soldier serum, but only succeeding in somehow knocking him back into Skinny Steve, and then kidnapping Tony to force him to do the sciency stuff with Steve's blood. (When I look at this now, it would have made more sense for it to be Bruce. I can only assume that when I wrote it I hadn't met Bruce yet.) Of course they Endured Hardship, Fell In Love, and Triumphed Over Their Foes.

The second part picked up where the epilogue of "The First Avenger" started, with Fury placing Steve with the rest of the Avengers. Tony has gone full Playboy Billionaire and refuses to talk to him, for reasons that basically boil down to "You're out of my league now."

As always, I had imagined the romance/sex part in a lot of detail, while only having the vaguest idea of how the plot would work; as I describe it here, I can see that it's badly out of balance, with lots of adventure in Part 1 and nothing but feeeeeelings in Part 2.

And I could probably have fixed that, except that it turned out that Bucky wasn't dead. And if Bucky was alive, then I couldn't make myself believe that Steve could love anyone else.

It's a pity. It started with Steve waking up in the middle of an asthma attack, and it was fun and somewhat therapeutic to write Steve getting a chance to get used to modern days by fighting his way out of a makeshift hospital with Tony rather than by being flung into Times Square without help. It allowed me to write what it felt like to be transformed back into Captain America from Steve's POV (Then the pain went away all at once and he was panting, drenched in sweat, and Tony was saying, "Mother of *god.*"). It allowed me to write one sex scene with Skinny Steve and another one with Still Virginal Like It's 1942 Steve.

Closed canons are a lot easier to write than ones that keep changing.





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