The depression lifted a few weeks after I stopped taking the medicine (thank GOD) and I was able to turn in all my papers for that semester. I'm back to thinking about publishing as the main career I want to shoot for, but I feel like that decision is being made, now, on a much solider foundation. If it doesn't work out, I can find something else-- lots of somethings else-- that will make me just as happy. And if my writing never finds a more significant outlet than my LJ, well, that's true of a lot of writers better than I, and it doesn't diminish their accomplishments. It would be more awesome to succeed as a professional writer, but it won't kill me if I don't.
(*) I homeschooled through 7th to 12th grade; it was pretty awesome, intellectually (again, that was all I thought was available for me), but it meant I skipped the getting-to-make-friends-with-fellow-misfits thing I hear happens in high school. I hung out on the internet, though-- actually, TableTalk-- actually, I knew you on TableTalk, although not very well!
(**) um, which is not to say all geeks are the sort of people who would rather play board games than talk about feminism-- I know better than that, I'm in fandom!-- but my friends really were.
Re: I seriously thought this was going to be two paragraphs long :(
The depression lifted a few weeks after I stopped taking the medicine (thank GOD) and I was able to turn in all my papers for that semester. I'm back to thinking about publishing as the main career I want to shoot for, but I feel like that decision is being made, now, on a much solider foundation. If it doesn't work out, I can find something else-- lots of somethings else-- that will make me just as happy. And if my writing never finds a more significant outlet than my LJ, well, that's true of a lot of writers better than I, and it doesn't diminish their accomplishments. It would be more awesome to succeed as a professional writer, but it won't kill me if I don't.
(*) I homeschooled through 7th to 12th grade; it was pretty awesome, intellectually (again, that was all I thought was available for me), but it meant I skipped the getting-to-make-friends-with-fellow-misfits thing I hear happens in high school. I hung out on the internet, though-- actually, TableTalk-- actually, I knew you on TableTalk, although not very well!
(**) um, which is not to say all geeks are the sort of people who would rather play board games than talk about feminism-- I know better than that, I'm in fandom!-- but my friends really were.