JKR offset donations
Dec. 31st, 2025 03:32 pmOf course I have mixed feelings about this. On the one hand, fandom belongs to the fans, and the outpouring of love and work and time that created the fandom was ours and remains ours. On the other hand, I don't like the ongoing link to someone who has traded in a career as an author for one as a full-time pro-hate activist.
I don't want to take the stories down. I don't want to orphan them. I just want to be able to take some pleasure in them again.
So starting with 2026, I'm making donations to https://transgenderlawcenter.org and https://give.thetrevorproject.org in honor of fanreaders. That way when the titles come up in my email, I'll have a nice, warm feeling knowing that they're connected with people who are doing something positive for the lives of trans people.
(Thanks to
Going back to work
Sep. 2nd, 2025 05:09 pmI've been out of work since I was laid off in July 2024. It would have been really inconvenient to be working for a lot of that time, as I was helping my brother see our mother through her decline and death from dementia and also having some serious health issues of my own. (And Mom left me some money, which allowed me to say "I'm too stressed to job-hunt" and then not job-hunt, a rare luxury that I'm very grateful for.)
But I have to admit I've also been bored and restless and lonely. It will be nice to have co-workers, and tasks, and a paycheck again.
On the other hand, it's been thirteen months since I consistently had to be any place in particular in the morning. And the cat is going to be sad.
Fic anniversary
Aug. 11th, 2025 10:51 am(This is really not meant to encourage anybody to go read that story, because I put it on AO3 for what felt like historical reasons, but I do not in any way think it's GOOD.)
I'm still happy to be here.[waves at old and new friends]
Chicken adventures
Aug. 1st, 2025 02:50 pmTurns out chick-sexing is an imperfect art. Over the intervening month, she started to hear one of the birds crowing, but it took a while to figure out which one. It was Dottie.
My stylist called everybody she knew out in the county until she found someone who was both interested in rooster and zoned for rooster. When she was carrying Dottie out to the car to take him to his new home, he crowed a goodbye at the coop as they passed.
Out of the coop they heard some farewell cackling. And more crowing.
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Sinners (2025)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Elias "Stack" Moore, Billie Holiday, Paul Simon, Lil Nas X (Musician), Rhiannon Gidden (Musician), Sarah Vaughan (Musician), Prince (Musician)
Additional Tags: music industry, RPF if you're a real stickler
Summary:
It's who you know.
Beta thanks to
Anybody want a tarot deck?
May. 10th, 2025 03:20 pmIt's a contemporary deck with decent racial diversity, but I'll warn you upfront that everyone in it seems very young; that might be why I can't relax into it. You can see some of the cards at the Comparative Tarot tumblr. I have deck, book, and original box.
I always worry that I'm giving unfair advantage to people in the same time zone as me, so how about an anonymous ranked-choice poll? Let's see how this works. Responses should be anonymous. I'll keep it open for 24 hours and then contact the winner.
No one wanted it, so I gave it to a thrift shop.
Think But This And All Is Mended (2045 words) by Resonant
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: due South
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski
Characters: Ray Kowalski, Benton Fraser
Additional Tags: Romance, First Time, Makeup removal
Summary:
The makeup remover from Fraser’s kit smelled unscented. Which was not the same as not having any smell, but at least there wasn’t any pregnant mucus this time. Where Fraser was involved, you had to be thankful for small blessings, smellwise.
May this house be full of kitchen smells
and shadows and toys and nests of mice
and roars of rage and waterfalls of tears
and deep sexual silences and sounds
of mysterious origin never explained
and troves and keepsakes and a lot of junk
and a flowing like a warm wind only slower
blowing the leaves of trees and books and the fish-years
of a child’s life silvery flickering
quick, quick, in the slow incessant gust
that billows out the curtains for a moment
all those years from now, ago.
May the sills and doorframes
be in blessing blest at every passing.
May the roof but not the rooms know rain.
May the windows know clearly
the branch and flower of the apple tree.
And may you be in this house
as the music is in the instrument.
Today's medical tip
Apr. 15th, 2025 12:17 pmI've just had my follow-up appointment from having a small cancerous growth removed from my bladder. I'm fine! I feel fine! My prognosis is fine! But I'm glad we caught it early and wish I had gone to a specialist even earlier.
The doctor compared this procedure to removing a malignant mole from your arm or a polyp they find during a colonoscopy, so as procedures go this was a pretty simple one.
I now have to have a cytoscopy to watch for regrowth, and after four years the frequency will go down but I'll have to have them annually for the rest of my life, just another annual thing like a Pap or a mammogram.
I would have pursued more healthcare if I hadn't been scared. So if you're scared the way I was, I'll put some details below the cut; if you're squeamish, maybe don't click that arrow.
( cut for gross stuff )
Summers Ago
by Isabella Gardner
For Edith Sitwell
The Ferryman fairied us out to sea
Gold gold gold sang the apple-tree
Children I told you I tell you our sun was a hail of gold!
I say that sun stoned, that sun stormed our tranquil, our blue bay
bellsweet saltfresh water (bluer than tongue-can-tell, daughter)
and dazed us, darlings, and dazzled us, I say that sun crazed
(that sun clove) our serene as ceramic selves and our noon glazed cove,
and children all that grew wild by the wonderful water shot tall
as tomorrow, reeds suddenly shockingly green had sprouted like sorrow
and crimson explosions of roses arose in that flurry of Danaean glory
while at night we did swoon ah we swanned to a silverer moonlight than listen or lute,
we trysted in gondolas blown from glass and kissed in fluted Venetian bliss.
Sister and brother I your mother
Once was a girl in skirling weather
Though summer and swan must alter, falter,
I waltzed on the water once, son and daughter.
Three-dimensional space poll
Feb. 13th, 2025 09:41 pmWhere are you?
North America
46 (62.2%)
South & Central America & Caribbean
2 (2.7%)
Africa
0 (0.0%)
Europe
14 (18.9%)
Asia
3 (4.1%)
Australia / do people still say Oceania or is that outdated?
9 (12.2%)
Want to share more info? Country, region, state/province?
Me myself, I'm in the U.S. I'm not from Iowa but I'm in Iowa.
New due South story: "A Guy On Fire"
Jan. 22nd, 2025 11:47 amChapters: 1/1
Fandom: due South
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski
Characters: Benton Fraser, Ray Kowalski
Additional Tags: Romance, First Time, Sex Pollen, Dubious Consent, Sort Of, because sex pollen, Aphrodisiacs, Post-Canon, Back to Chicago, Pining while fucking
Summary:
“It’s a flashback. I took the drug voluntarily.”
“No you didn’t,” Ray said instantly, because sure he did, suuuuure he did, somebody just went, hey, goody snowshoes, wanna come till you pass out and then come till you pass out in ten years too? just for kicks, just because I asked you pretty please? – and then he got it: “Victoria.”
I just happened to notice that a lot of sex pollen stories didn't really have a lot of sex scenes in them. What was I to do?
This story is more like a sex sampler from my ancestor in smut. I want you to picture the figures picked out with her best backstitch and every i dotted with a French knot.
Thanks the Escapade Discord, especially Greenygal, for thoughts on Dief, which inspired some stuff that may not be very visible in the final draft but was highly significant as underpinning. Thanks to the DueSouthBound Discord's NC17 crowd for encouragement in the very early stage.
Very grateful beta thanks to
The Insides of Things
Jan. 17th, 2025 04:26 pmDare I hope I'll actually be able to do Fixit February too?
* except for the insides of things that still belong to the kidlet.
** except for the chest freezer, which will have to wait until (1) it's not 6 days until garbage pickup comes and (2) it's not freaking 51 degrees outside.
As if to reward my hard work, last night I dreamed Callum Keith Rennie asked me to paint his nails black. His cuticles were a disgrace, but that's very punk rock of him.
Mom's death
Jan. 8th, 2025 11:22 amI think it was a good death. She was nearly ninety and had been struggling with increasing dementia for several years, and her health started to decline this summer.
About five years ago she suddenly began very urgently working on writing down all the stories of her parents and grandparents, her childhood on the farm, how she met her dearest friend, how she met my dad. We had lots of great conversations, and now I have this priceless document. "I don't know why, but now just seems like the right time," she said.
I won't be able to answer comments, but I appreciate any good thoughts.
So I marched off and found Deadpool (whose current movie I have not seen) and demanded financial compensation for damages I had suffered as a result of interacting with fictional characters. And he pulled out a leather wallet and handed me a wad of cash.
I mean, I don't have a fabulously lucrative new job yet, so maybe this is speaking too soon. But I just got on a screening call, asked the recruiter to repeat herself because I was having difficulty with her accent, and this resulted in me accidentally negotiating the pay upwards.
If you're looking for a career change, and you can write and have good executive function skills, I encourage you to check out proposal management. It's in demand, can be done remotely, and pays a lot better than admin or journalism.
If you don't have relevant experience, the APMP certification seems to be meaningful.
and extra whip
Nov. 6th, 2024 09:43 amAt the coffee shop I was wrestling with the unfamiliar payment kiosk because today was a day I wanted to tip a little extra. The barista pushed my mocha over the counter without a lid: "Need you to take a few sips so I'll have room for whip. I was trying to give you a little extra of the good stuff."
In the car I tasted the finished mocha and it was basically a hot fudge sundae. That was when I was finally able to cry.
Little extra of the good stuff to all y'all.