Silence

[resonant]

I had a strange experience yesterday, though I despair of being able to convey it in words.

I don't know about the rest of y'all, but I have a very chattery brain. If you come upon me unexpectedly, you'll usually catch me talking to myself; this is the only way I can hear my thoughts over my, well, other thoughts. If I wake up in the middle of the night, there'll already be a song in my head. It's very noisy in here.

Well, yesterday I walked to my coffee shop, had a mocha, and worked for a couple of hours. I completed a goal. Feeling very pleased with myself, I packed up my backpack and got ready to walk home --

And discovered that my brain had fallen silent.

There were no chains of thoughts, no ongoing arguments, no pileup of associations. Not even music. Thoughts floated into my head and floated out again.

It lasted twenty minutes, nearly all the way home.

I told the spouse about it and he said, "You're achieving enlightenment."

Comments

[viggorlijah.livejournal.com]

I explain it as multiple soundtracks. There's always something happening inside my head!

When I get ill, one of the symptoms I actually enjoy is the fever-brain because everything slows down and I have no extra processing. It is the perfect time to read crappy magazines and watch tv because I can be totally absorbed in it with no boredom or distraction! Last bout of tonsilitis, I couldn't edit anything I said to my husband's amusement.

Of course, that's like emptying the pool, rather than calming the waters.

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

Hee! I actually get very anxious when that happens; I know I'm supposed to be remembering things, and I'm aware that I'm not remembering them ...