Midwifery was my grand passion from 1988 (when I first decided I wanted to pursue it) through many years, until I finally started my first midwifery job in 2001. Three and a half years later, what I thought was going to be the perfect midwifery job ended up breaking my heart, and I was left completely lost.
It took me a couple years to make it past that heartbreak. I love teaching, and there's a lot to love in my new job as a nursing professor (something I never in would have believed a few years ago), but I don't feel the kind of grand passion for it I felt for midwifery. Which means I don't get the same highs, but it also won't break my heart again, not the way midwifery did (although occasional students will break my heart a little, but that's okay). My boss keeps talking about wanting to keep me here for the long haul, and I'd like to think that will be the case, although I also feel a pull to someday go back to school and get that Ph.D in women's studies or some other subject that would combine my disparate interests....
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Date: 7/13/07 01:04 am (UTC)It took me a couple years to make it past that heartbreak. I love teaching, and there's a lot to love in my new job as a nursing professor (something I never in would have believed a few years ago), but I don't feel the kind of grand passion for it I felt for midwifery. Which means I don't get the same highs, but it also won't break my heart again, not the way midwifery did (although occasional students will break my heart a little, but that's okay). My boss keeps talking about wanting to keep me here for the long haul, and I'd like to think that will be the case, although I also feel a pull to someday go back to school and get that Ph.D in women's studies or some other subject that would combine my disparate interests....