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I've been having some digestive issues. My doctor thinks I may have developed an intolerance/sensitivity, because middle age is a wonderland. So it's important for me to track what I eat.

I downloaded an app. MoodBites, if you're curious. It's pretty good, but ...

I've never been treated for or diagnosed with an eating disorder. I don't usually say I have, or have had, an eating disorder. (I mean, usually it's enough to say, "I'm a woman in America.")

But I spent 23 of my first 30 years dieting, and if you'd asked five-year-old me to describe her best friend she would have said, "She's prettier than me because she's thin," and I'm aware that my relationship with food and eating is a very thin piece of balsa wood laid gently on top of a writhing mass of rotting pumpkin guts.

And tracking what I eat is making me very, very unhappy.

I can tell that the designers of the app are trying to make it usable even to people who have this issue. You can't enter quantities at all. You can see that you've recorded yogurt three times but you can't see a list of what you've eaten today. They're doing their best. And I do need the information.

But it sucks, and I want to complain.

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