Inside the mind of the Res

[resonant]

Last night I dreamed that I was at Hogwarts uncovering a scandal involving certain professors trading grades for sexual favors.

For confirmation, I sneaked into Lockhart's office. I discovered a silk curtain that could be used to screen off the window so no one could see in, and also a silk-covered -- well, it was a piece of furniture of some sort, like a cross between a sitting pillow, an ottoman, and an armchair. In my mind, the very strangeness of it presaged horrible sexual violations.

There were rumors about Lupin, too, and even about McGonagall.

Why is all this so steeped in menace, you ask? I mean, I read Harry/Snape. I write Harry/Snape.

Ah, but in the dream the person who was being coerced into trading sex for grades was my little brother.

My little brother is thirty-seven and well past the need to trade anything at all for grades, but apparently in my head he's still in need of protection from rapacious authority figures. (I knew I shouldn't have said that stuff about him and Donald Rumsfeld.)

Comments

[sanj.livejournal.com]

Huh. While I acknowledge it's a scary-wrong dream, I'd still probably read the story. If you wrote it. :)

I ws thinking lately that the reason I Really Can't Go There with RPS is that I read (and have written) some pretty scary chan. And therefore I really need my sick twisted sexual fantasies involving pretty young wizards and superheroes to be in a completely other dimension than, say, my 15-year-old RL nephew. Those walls must not touch. Ew.

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

Yeah -- my best friend's son, who's sort of like a nephew to me, is younger than Clark Kent, which made reading first-season Smallville kind of tricky, especially the Te variety with the corsets and stuff. I just kept telling myself, "TV fifteen is like TV ugly."

Chan is problematic for me. On the one hand, it makes me profoundly uncomfortable to read stories that put the very young into sexual situations. (I'm OK down to about fifteen; any younger than that, and I start to squirm.) My reaction is probably influenced by the fact that I have a five-year-old daughter.

But on the other hand, one of my biggest, most reliable kinks is the sexual awakening kink -- what I sometimes call The Blue Lagoon: "What are these strange new feelings? What happens when I touch you ... here?"

So I find myself seeking out first-sexual-experience stories, even though the search often leads me into stories that I'm really uncomfortable reading. And it means that I respond to chan, even to wildly underaged chan; it turns me on, it moves me, even when it horrifies and frightens me.

(One of the things I like about slash is that you can plausibly have certain kinds of sexual awakenings even in characters who are adults. It's like the best of both worlds for me.)

[anuanu.livejournal.com]

*giggles madly at your discomfiture*

I've had alarming dreams as well, generally about Hooch sodomising me with a strap-on.

There's some frightening stuff in authors' heads, no doubt.

Btw, love the rape!chair, lol. That begs to be ficced, for the sake of the odd chair alone.

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

Good lord. Remind me to stay out of your dreams; they're even worse than mine.

The funny thing about the chair is that in real life I can't really think of any sexual use for the thing at all. It was too low for a guy to sit in and get a blow-job from someone kneeling, too high to sit in or kneel on and give a blow-job to someone standing; it had no back, anyway, so it wouldn't have been comfortable to sit on for any length of time; and it wasn't big enough to lie down on.

Plus, if you were going to get bodily fluids on something, you would not want it upholstered in white silk.

But in my dream, it was indisputible proof that Lockhart had some lewd intention. [shrugs] Dreams.

[anuanu.livejournal.com]

Dreams are the strangest forms of reality and rationality, they really are.

That's...

[celandineb.livejournal.com]

very strange and interesting. I hope it does not mean you will stop writing Harry/Snape?

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

Not in the foreseeable future, no. I seem to be thoroughly hooked.

[moshi.livejournal.com]

I agree completely about the whole First Time thing not just being confined to youngsters. I like a good bit of first time, and a great deal of my fics end up first time fics, (something I have no control over...it's my bloody 'slasher-side' that does it).

Sorry about the fact that it was your brother in the dream...that must have been quite disturbing. But hey, change him to a HP character, and you have a very smutty fic in the making.

Mosh

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

But hey, change him to a HP character, and you have a very smutty fic in the making.

Well, help yourself if you'd like it. I'm not likely to write it myself; obviously the idea squicks the living hell out of me.

If I squint, I can almost see a relationship that's Resable (i.e. nice and consensual and reasonably non-soul-destroying). Say Percy gets the idea that Ron has fallen prey to some sort of sex-for-grades deal. (Excuse me, sex-for-marks.) And so he begins to sneak around and pry, and he discovers his brother in a steamy and clearly consensual clinch with ...

Well, there's where it falls apart. Because Ron has chemistry with Harry, Hermione, and Draco (and, though it pains me to admit it, with Ginny), but he has none with any of the teachers or older students, as far as I can tell. Which is why I said I could almost see it.

Oh, well.

[xoverau.livejournal.com]

...

*laughs a lot*

Man, your unconscious amuses me.

[susan-voight.livejournal.com]

Clearly it was a curious sofa.

[persephone-il.livejournal.com]

...Your dreams are interesting. I'd say I wish I had them, except my own dreams sometimes turn into stories for no good reason. I once dreamed about a DADA teacher who used the students as lab rats. He gave them some hallucinogen that made them paranoid.

[resonant8.livejournal.com]

Ooh! You know, I'll bet there's a story in that. I can seriously see that happening. (Especially if it were introduced in a subtle way that wasn't easily spotted by the resident Potions expert.)