Mood goes ... thunk.

[resonant]

So I got 100% on a Microsoft Excel test yesterday, and I came home from work and removed a metric shit-ton of junk from my basement today, and I was feeling pretty darned good.

And then the spouse e-mailed me a link to a job in New City, and I thought, "Well, it's more secretarial work, which I don't really want, but on the other hand I have to have a job and it might be good practice to apply for this one."

So I download the application, and like the first question after basic identification is, "Have you ever been fired or asked to leave a job?"

And now my stomach is full of live squirmy things.

Obviously I'm going to have to process my damned feelings about this thing, even though it was eleven years ago and the company no longer exists¹, because I really can't be in the middle of a job interview and suddenly have a belly full of squirm.

Everything in the whole world sucks.

¹(and even though my preference regarding emotions will be familiar to anybody who ever tried to write in the POV of John Sheppard or Benton Fraser)

Comments

[greyeyes]

Congrats on getting stuff done! I really need to learn how to use Excel.

I'm glad you made this post as I'll be job hunting in a year, if not sooner, and I suddenly realized I was "not re-hired" on an annual contract and may get asked about it. Things to think about. The questions I've not even considered are the *worst*!

[resonant]

Excel is pretty amazing, actually, but I only scratched the surface of what it will do. I mean, in my office I am the Excel power user because I can (1) format an entry to be centered over several cells and (2) print a selection.

I think if I went any further indepth than I needed for this test, I would want to take an accounting class or something. There were things in the book that made me go, "Well, I'm pretty sure I could do that, but I don't understand why I would want to."

> The questions I've not even considered are the *worst*!

This is why I think I ought to apply for this other job even though I don't want it: I need a sense of what to be prepared for, and a chance to practice when there's not much at stake. But I hate it. I hate it so much.

[greyeyes]

Excel confuses the heck out of me, I've only used it to fill in already-formatted spreadsheets so far. But I'd like to move into an office work type job so it'd be good to know *something*.

I need a sense of what to be prepared for, and a chance to practice when there's not much at stake.

That's a really good point and a great idea. But yes, SO TERRIFYING and UGH. I get the worse butterflies, and I suck at talking up myself. "Just hire me, and explain to me what to do, and I'll do it! I'll be great in about a month!"