Out?

[resonant]

The original sci-fi erotica I'm writing for dementordelta (which I'm now thinking of as "the pouch porn") is getting a lovely polka of a beta, and I'm psyched to do a second draft tomorrow. I'm all excited about it.

In other news, I'm somewhat freaked out because without planning to at all, I went and told my best friend I'm bisexual. This is not a confession I routinely make, in the nonvirtual world -- the spouse knows, but I don't share it freely -- but it came up in conversation, and there was this moment where really my choice was to lie out loud with words ("Oh, yeah, I don't get that either") or to tell the truth.

It was terrifying.

She ... says I'm wrong. "You're not, really," she says.

This is reassuringly normal for her, actually, so my eye-rolling is much softened by relief. However, I still spent the rest of the afternoon feeling strangely freaked out. Guilty, actually, as if I'd done something wrong.

I think I don't tell the truth enough. I need more practice.

Comments

[buddleia.livejournal.com]

Sympathy. Especially with the weird guilt. It's difficult, when it shouldn't be anything.

Somebody once told me they didn't 'believe' in bisexuality when it came up. I remember asking her if she thought I was Father Christmas. But I can be pretty useless, too. My married bi best friend got very shirty indeed when I told her she'd lost her 'gay card'.